should i learn to write or build?

The only thing stopping me from killing myself right now is my inability to write a good suicide note. 

I haven't lived particularly long and haven't made anything particularly impressive or important and I certainly can't say I've impacted anybody's life for the better. If I killed myself right now, people would know me as a mediocre artist, a terrible friend, an even worse lover, and a poor writer of suicide notes.

What happens to me after I die is between me and God. But here's the thing: He isn't going to tell anyone jack shit about who I really was, let alone what he did with me. 

Once I either a) make something worth remembering or b) learn to write a decent note, then I'll come back to the idea of offing myself. Hopefully I'll have some cleanlier methods by then.