mixed emotions

I wish you knew exactly what I meant.

When I told you I loved you.

When I brushed your hair. 

When I gave you a ride home.

When I took you out to eat.

When I paid for your food. 

When I cried with you.

When I helped you up.

When I was there for you.

When I pushed you away.

When I friend-zoned you.

When I got jealous.

When I saw you with someone else. 

When I betrayed you.

When I kissed you.

When I wanted you back.

When I replaced you.

When I stopped loving you.