Supposition

Such sweet supposition. My elegant uprise has sparked. Firing, and falling at will. All beginning within this. Within me, and my every last delinquent thought. Embedded, and engraved with my cosmically structured chaos. All that recklessly bound perfection. I've never felt my own life more. So, I keep onward through the pain. Through the miscalculation. Through the chemical imbalanced curse. I swerve through them all. One right after the next, all while regretting each investment that I make in their favor. Too much given. Too much taken. Too much lost. All in the name of nothing. I have to divide my devastation from my own compassion. Trusting that it won't always be this way. That someday I'll reach my own limitation. That i will find it's loophole, and push my way through it's boundries. With flying colors, and an impeccable acceptance that I'll invent all on my own. It just has to be enough. Enough to keep me. To keep me going. To keep me gone. To keep me ready for that ending that I inevitably await. Because I knew better. I knew the fiction of infinity. I knew that nothing gold could ever last. and that's alright. That's okay just as long as my life catches fire. Just as long as my death takes me home. I have to forgive. I have to forgive. I have to forgive them for their faults. I have to forgive myself for my sins. I have to breathe now. This life within me. It must live.. Cause no matter what, I need them to know. I need him to know. Above all, I need to know. So for now, I'll let it be enough. For now, I'll rest easy. I won't forget even a single second. I will enjoy it. I will revel in it. I will feel it all. Every last inch. Because this is all that's left. This is all that I have..

And I will make sure it is as divine as my fate will allow.