If Only, if only...

I dreamt

you were making love to

someone else

this image chisels away

fragments of my soul

even as I have no right

in the surfeit of my longing

to enmesh the totality

of my being

within yours

all these yearnings

forfeit

as the desire

seems

to only belong

to me

I would never

force your hand

never violate

your will

if I cannot

beguile you

to my side

I don't

deserve you

but yet

if I could be granted

one mere askance:

please do not love another

so blatantly in my stead

before me