Numb
Every song I sang
Every string I strum
All the poems I've wrote
And all the pain that've flown
I thought I've gone up
Cause I've been down for so long
I thought I've all grown up
Cause I've been a child for so long
But look at me now
I'm holding an ink & a pen
With my headphones on
I sing I'm lost again
I'm listening again to Ivan B
More music fills my ear
As his rap pierce my skin
More music fills my ear
Of different people,
Different stories,
All of their worries and anxiety
Again today I am anxious
I'm getting more depressed
All those videos in YouTube,
There all but a repetition of what I've read
And I think I've gone numb
I think I've gone dumb
For with my heartless heart
I still think at dusk
And I haven't grabbed my pen
Like the way that I used to
I haven't wrote any poem
In the style that I used to
I'm not depressed anymore
Yet I ain't as motivated as before
I think my author life is ending,
But you know what they say
Every Ending comes a Beginning
But for now I am numb
I got no pain
I got no humm
I got no happiness
I'm just dumb
Dumb & dumber writing
My paper's still blank
And all my feelings still aren't over
And my poems never rhyme
Like the way that they used to