obituary of oblivion

The lights are out ,i sent in the daunting silence

Awakening the Aura the trembling tremors of taunting thoughts

Suppressed sundowns , satire sunsets slapped across a sloppy smile

Grumbled out I am fine

Eyes glossed over , grazed cover thighs criss-crossed razor sharp lines

Tyranny tears , body shakes over the coffin , i created in my bed you see I ripped out the cotton in the middle of it and stuffed my body in there

The demons came again , this time they had no mercy

Drinking of your own blood wasn’t enough

Tied a noose around your neck around that dreaded word Love

You held on until the love you’s stopped

And the razor slits wasn’t enough to keep you sane

You implanted in my brain , this high I can’t seem live without

I popped pills , placed on pretty plate and try to eat the bullshit

But i kept vomiting the truth even if it kills me

I down another shot , I reload every time the last one aint strong enough to pull the trigger

I plant my headstone at this place , i used to call this place home

I fade into the ghost , I always wished to be

I’ll kiss the lips of the devil and call it a revial

See my soul is black and blue

Bruised from baby boy blues and batterd cotton candy kisses that taste like liquor tinged lies christened with foreign nights that can’t remember tomorrow's matter

Yelling yesterday's ranging in my ear

press -played past , that only resume to the future

Where the car radio hums , and liquor bottles stolen from the parents cabinet

This is where you dealt with grief , then it became an addiction

You put yourself in painful situations to just know you feel

The numb feels so real , the smile jokes this is what death feels like

I am too deep in this to pull out , maybe you’ll kill me

I like the silence , this is when the violence rages in and the fist collide into the walls

And turns into the abusing of myself

I am a happy beat , with sad lyrics

I know this is suicide

But I remember at the age of eight

I was told angels

Are the ones that want to fly

I knew I was angel

Because I could never stop testing my wings

I just wanted to know

how high i can soar

and

How quickly it will take me to fall

I been praying to death

And he came

he held in his hand

A rose

And plucked the thorns

Out

And showed

Me

How to cut

love can be razor

it can cut out the one thing you need to live

a heart

it beats 1 pace to fast when you face me

2 pace to slow when you turn your back to me

see I fell comfortable in alone

and hug the lonely

when the urgue to live

almost's feels like a shadow

impossible to live behind

without the ghost following you there

cause even devils get buried

bitch burn in hell

star-crossed lover

sincerly , oblivion