Wasted in Love

No more sympathy

I can’t

I shouldn’t

I won’t

Let you win

We weren’t playing a game

But I gave you first place.

Why am I letting you control me?

We are two separate people

Two minds

Two hearts

Two souls

Different

Divergent.

And yet I devoted myself to you

Gave everything to you

Let you take me over

Without consent

For I was wasted

Drunk

From teenage love

That existed only

In my head.

-do not believe every “I love you”