Some time ago, something happened to me and broke me completely,
shredding me into little pieces and leaving ragged holes inside.
I won’t tell you exactly what that was and who caused it,
because I think that is the irrelevant fact in this equation.
So I will just sum it up for you and maybe you’ll understand.
Because what is necessary here is the story itself. What happened to me, was surprising and unexpected and I felt that I didn’t expect such an outcome, the ground opening beneath me and swallowing me up.
Again, that’s how I felt that day. A dark Sunday turning to a Monday,
filled with tears that overflowed me and threaten to sink me whole.
Some would ask... Why the tears? Why the sorrow?
And all I would have to say would be:
A heart can break in so many ways.
No romance really necessary if a friend breaks your trust and disappears... but that wasn’t even it if I had to think about it twice. Just the sudden aspect of it all. I wasn’t ready for such an outcome, I didn’t have time to prepare. Just a blow in the guts and a goodbye. All in pleasant and in such a cultural way. One would say, no one was to blame. Funny though it hurt just the same.
The interesting part was what occurred at the same time. In a different place in the world, but the same place. Here on Prose. One friend wandered away from me, for the reason only known to that person alone. Though I might have a clue or a two. People don’t like when you break their walls and see too much. From one side you see more beauty and deeper meaning. From the other side, lies may fall out without warning. Small ones to be honest but with incredible meaning to the one who bears them... for me these lies didn’t mean much. Don’t we all try to look better in eyes of others? Don’t we all do that at one point in our lives?
I will let you answer that question on your own. You know the best.
But let me get back to this little story. When I was in a dark place, or even a little before, I found a different, amazing soul. We got talking and found out that we share similar broken parts. Similar pains and fears. I was breaking and sinking in my tears... and so was this little soul. Then we got to talk some more. It instantly clicked, our words matching up. Through time and healing words we gave each other the support that was needed to face the world as it left us. We helped each other to make it through.
A silver lining over a dark moon.