Goodbye

I visited you for the first time today.

I couldn’t bring myself to do it before.

It’s been three years

Since I saw you last.

I know it’s been too long.

I just couldn’t do it before.

I had to say goodbye.

I don’t know if I’ll ever go back.

It’s strange to know you’re there.

We talked for hours.

There was so much to say.

So much to catch you up on.

I’m not the same person I was.

I want to know what you'd think

Of who I’ve become.

I wish you could meet my boyfriend

And my friends.

I wish you could see the people

Who have become such big parts

Of my new life.

But I just have to deal

With the way things are.

I visited you for the first time today.

I’m glad you couldn’t see my tears.

I’m glad there was no one

To tell me it’s fine.

Nothing is fine

Because you’re gone.

And all that’s left of you

Is a stupid stone in the ground.

You’re gone

And today,

I finally convinced myself

You aren’t coming back.

I finally said goodbye.

Don’t expect me to go back.

Don’t expect me to get over it.

You’re gone

And for the first time ever,

I can’t do anything

To make it all better.