Fear of losing family

As a cub who has just lost his mother forever is always in fear of what will be happened with him as the warm touch of love and motherly affection has gone and he has to survive now alone keeping himself safe from the predators and satisfying his hunger by collecting the foods; I have always wandered in the world of fear of losing any member of my families that includes not only my parents but also my maternal uncle, ants and their daughter i.e. my elder sister, as I know without them I have also lost the cordial relationship and the warm family bond that is enough to throw me in the world of darkness of depression as the unpropitious cub.

Fate or Destiny can play any cruel game with anyone as we are all the puppet of its hand. Although a lot of religious scriptures tell us that family bond is nothing but a mere illusion but it is impossible for us to get rid of it.

People with whom I grew up, who were always with me in my good or bad time- when the stress, depression, panic or other ill feelings subjugated my mind as the darkness of cloud dominate the firmament during the monsoons; whose warm touch, sympathy and compassion help me to remove the memory of all mishaps and give my mind a new light of hope as rainbow appears in the sky after the rain is over- how can I forget them?

How can I forget those times I spent with them, those enjoyable moments which I get as the best gift of my life - their loving, caring and sometimes frightful attitude when I did something seriously wrong?

When I went in the wrong direction or did something which might have an adverse effect on me; my mom and maternal always interrupt.

They admonished me, slapped me or struck me with a stick or did every possible thing to show me the right way. But truly, now I feel that the love and empathy hidden in the mother's stick will not be gained anywhere in this world. Mother should be the living God for everyone and her lap is the real heaven on this earth. Who wants to lose it or who wants to be deprived of her divine blessings- a blessing only can be compared with the blessings of the god.

My father is also an extremely important person to me as from the very childhood he protects me from every possible threat and took extensive care for everything regarded to me- my health, education and choice. He not only gifted me a lovely childhood but also uncountable memorable moments. I can not even imagine losing his presence- his words, movements or steps and my argument and disapproval with him regarding different issues.

At last, come to my lifelong adviser-my maternal uncle and elder sister. Especially regarding education, my maternal uncle became my main guide who gives all valuable advice in every step of my life. He was always aware of what school I should admit, what private tutor or institutions I should choose for best learning. My elder sister also advised me in these cases.

I know cruel destiny will take them one day and throw me in the world of darkness where stress and depression accompany me instead of love and sympathy and that's why I am terrified for those days when I lose them.