Challenge
If only I had/ hadn’t.....
will i always have to lie that i’m okay
if only i had taken one more
one more pill
one more and it might’ve
worked
i tell them i’m better now but
i’m so much worse
but “fake it till you make it”
has been my lips’ only truth
i don’t know why i called the hospital when i
couldn’t breathe anymore
i didn’t want to
if only i hadn’t
then maybe i wouldn’t have to still
be here
day after day
minute after minute as i become n u m b
to the pain
i guess now i’m just waiting
until i’m too numb to dial 911
until i’m too numb to think
until i’m so numb
that death will be just another normal day
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