Dear “Parents”,

 I turn 20 soon,

Do you know I celebrated my birthday today?

15 days early

Simply because I’d rather celebrate with my best friend

Than even think of celebrating with you,

And yet, somehow you managed to ruin that.

Do you know I’ve cried every year on my birthday?

It’s turned into the day I hate the most

I know you never wanted me

I know I was a mistake

And sometimes I wish you had just killed me

Instead of letting me see this day.

Did you know I got a tattoo today?

I promise, it’s beautiful

And it made me realize

That I can bear a lot of pain

So maybe the next time I pick up the blade

Ill actually put it against my skin and not be afraid.

Did you know that my temporary job is going well?

I think I’ll make it permanent and drop out of college

Before I end up killing myself

This is just me saying goodbye

I’ll be out of your hair soon

Then you won’t have to pick at every small mistake

And ignore all the right things I do.

-(Not) your daughter.