I’m Never Alone, I’m just Lonely; Cause Loneliness is Always With Me.

Spending nights with my pillow

Soaking it with tears and sorrow

Staring at myself for hours

Trying to heal all the invisible scars

Letting my heart cry out

Silencing my unheard shout

Hiding the tears behind my eyes

Faking a smile to cover my lies

Waking up every morning, without having slept

Remembering the secrets I have kept

Going around all day as if it’s fine

Laughing those laughs which are never really mine

Hanging with people who don’t really care

Yes, so many people but this pain no would share

I’m feeling so much that I feel empty

Surrounded by people, but from the heart there is no one I can see

Walking back home with a broken heart

Wishing an end for this story that start

And reaching back, with a thousand things to say

But everyone has already walked away

I looked around

I wanted to disappear, but actually I wanted to be found

And then again, curling up in bed, hoping my heart, never again beats

But this pain never goes, this pain just repeats

But, now again, the nights are here to hear me screams

And the mirrors waiting to steal my dreams

The pillow is ready to be drowned

And the scars are waiting to be found

The pain is waiting to roll down my cheeks

And then come out as shrieks

But who dose care; no one is here to see

No one to notice what loneliness dose to me

Solitude is bliss, but loneliness a curse

Cause solitude comes from self and loneliness from others

And they say to live you need water, food and air

But ask my murdered heart who has got everything but love and care

Loneliness doesn’t really have a colour; it’s like a black hole inside

Or perhaps a place where I could hide

Don’t say you were there, because you left me alone

Don’t say you brought tape, because my heart was still torn

My heart that is broke now can’t be made

The smiles that covered the pain, have started to fade

You’ll not know how I’m being killed from inside

You’ll not know how many tears I’ve cried

You won’t know how bad you hurt me

I’ll never let you know I’m lonely

It’s not my fault you didn’t hear my cries

If only you would have read my eyes.

But I’m never alone, I’m just lonely

Cause loneliness is always with me.