I take deep breaths and say
Im better off,
I laugh with my friends when they bring you up and say,
We all get a few fuck ups.
I read stories just to get lost in other peoples
I'm covering myself with bandaids because thats what i'm supposed to do
Now that i'm single.
I ask people how they are, just so they'll ask me how I am,
and then they'll bring you up,
So I dont have to.
I let go of you everyday,
and I let go of the people we shared,
and some times that hurts even more then losing you.
But everyone chooses sides eventually.
I watch through little windows until you close your blinds
and I close mine.
But there is so much noise I can still hear you coming and going.
There are sirens outside of my window, and I wish I could call you
and you would make my feel safe.
Your body fit mine perfectly,
until it didnt.
It was a past life,
I miss it so much,
and I dont miss it at all.