.

I take deep breaths and say

Im better off,

I laugh with my friends when they bring you up and say,

We all get a few fuck ups.

I read stories just to get lost in other peoples

Fiction.

I'm covering myself with bandaids because thats what i'm supposed to do

Now that i'm single.

I ask people how they are, just so they'll ask me how I am,

and then they'll bring you up,

So I dont have to.

I let go of you everyday,

and I let go of the people we shared,

and some times that hurts even more then losing you.

But everyone chooses sides eventually.

I watch through little windows until you close your blinds

and I close mine.

But there is so much noise I can still hear you coming and going.

There are sirens outside of my window, and I wish I could call you

and you would make my feel safe.

Your body fit mine perfectly,

until it didnt.

It was a past life,

I miss it so much,

and I dont miss it at all.