THE GOODBYE I NEVER SAID

In the darkest and longest nights

When sleep resists with all its might

Gliding gracefully into my thoughts

Are your brown eyes and unfilled dots.

Frantically pushing you away

Into my mind's vortex, I tumble.

In the pits of joy and angst

And guilt and regret, I crumble.

Like a frail boat

Heading to the oceans

Unaware of the storms

I fell for pretty love.

The sunshine and rainbows of

Hidden glances and shy smiles,

Random Hangouts and daft banters

The stolen kisses and tender touches.

But the grey crept in

And the storm broke me

With rains of guilt

And gales of regret.

For all the tears you cried

For all the nights you bled

I cower my head in shame

I cage my heart in blame.

And for the goodbye I never said

I write a thousand words.