February

Jealousy is a disease

I’m sinking to the floor

Crashing to my knees

Imagining him with you

Twists my heart

It scrapes and it bleeds

How could you be with him

When you should have been with me?

I stalk you online

Your name is all that I think

I imagine the compassion

Between you and my soul sinks

I cry when I blink

Anger runs in my veins

I feel I need a shrink

And a new love towards pain

I know I should want the best

But I’m selfish when I care

It’s my own damn fault

Because I should have been there

I watch you hold his hand

And I cant help but stare

And then I curl up and drown

In this cold pool of dispair

#12monthsofsorrow