nevermind
symbols and words entangled mich erinnern an the time when i was thriving four-legged and wild fed on meat drunk with blood silver lining of the moon on the golden circle of the sun full of light full of fire spilling sparkles like breadcrumbs as i proceed further into the depth i have come from and i shut my eyes and don’t exist up among the stars trace of mist magic bells crystal dust in the lovely beyond staring back at me circuitry electricity roaming free like a vivid wild beast like myself with my fangs claws sharp as daggers deadly as bullets & i conquer & thrive surrounded by my pack black shiny fur yellow eyes in the dark forever tangible indestructible big like a mountain i run ahead to spread my victory spill it upon the world as a web
narrow corridors between the highrises resemble those between two sheets of metal covering all the walls deep underground and the drink of the gods offered by a furious hand of a child topples me into the memory of wonderful days full of vibrant thought forms flowing into each other like mercury and sweet scents of wax and pine melt together within the confined coffin of my skull a nosebleed a warpaint favorite monsters sewn from spelaean shadows behind that day i just humbly sat on the hood of my car soaked with all the fiery sunlight of the day and isolated myself straight into outer vacuum to produce vacant space for possession i required to succeed in a challenge saw the rain boiling up in the clouds like a blessing heard the thunder roar somewhere half a world away roamed with wild horses across the vast shadow valley i ache so much for until i got hot and tight as if a whole thousand of demons at once had arrived at my call saw the river of fire filling me from within it was pleasant and calming like a surge of wild rush easy to conduct to beam to spill over and share