Losing your best friend to other people

Typical high school cliche. More popular best friend leaves less popular best friend behind. Well this happened to me, and let me tell you its worse than the movies make it seem. My best friend for 10 years ditched me for cooler friends who I could not compete with. I cannot even describe the feelings I had when she wouldn't notice me in the hallways anymore, the girl who would sleep over my house simply because she loves hanging out with me. The feelings when during halloween she was forced to pity invite me to her new friend's house because every hallowen we would go trick or treating together, with no fail, and no year skipped. The feelings when our families are still close so we are forced to hang out, and I can feel her sliping away, completely different from the girl who would play pretend with me in the rain and make up dances with and plannes our weddings with, where we would be each other's maid of honor. The feeling is worse than heartbreak, beacause it destroys your entire soul. The person you grew up, who made you the person you are today, now a stranger to you. And the worse part of it is that you cant hate them, because you have loved them, given them your entire life for years. Cant hate them because you are mad at yourself for not being cooler and changing with them. And even now, when you can get along but you know that everytime your families hang out, and you are forced to hang with her, she is somewhere else, thinking about any number of things, just not you. So every night I look at the stars and think about everything we used to do, said we would together, and now never will.