Tug of War

Am I on the right path?

Will I look back and laugh?

At the fact that I thought this

Is how I'd find joy and bliss

Down one path is what I love to do

But the other seems like a short cut through

To the dream of what I want my future to be

But in return will I lose the joys that set me free

See I am split between

Being realistic or following my dream

Being practical or creative

To which will I look back at and say "I lived"

See the realistic

Will make life simplistic

Is structured and reliable

A support so I'll be able

To build what I've always pictured

Killing the present for the unknown future

Is that entirely absurd?

And on the other hand

Is a completely different plan

It is bringing my dream to life

Doing what I love, but it's quite

Shaky, will sway and maybe even tumble

Living in the present and gambling the future

Is it worth the risk to go for double?

Its just a giant game of tug of war

I don't know which I want more

So overwhelmed and unsure

Either way I'll look back and wonder