lovesick

with words unsaid,

i beg you to love me

i give all that i can,

my efforts still seem subpar

i’m running in circles,

the destination i once dreamed to find has dissipated

i hate what my life has become

i’ve grown numb,

the pain became unbearable

another chapter of life that i hope to forget,

memories i will soon suppress

i ached for your love,

passion used to radiate from my smile as i’d watch you play your guitars

my smile has turned gray,

every spoken word falls deep into the abyss

i didn’t let you shatter me

like a dog chasing it’s own tail,

i look like a fool

i was so far up my own ass with the visions of the potential that i saw in you

my eyes are now closed,

the only thing that keeps me awake at night is my own stupidity

what’s the use in running after someone who doesn’t wish to be chased?

soon i’ll accept that it’s really over,

and that everything is

my

mistake