some~dreams

i've been dreaming of

the swimming pool with no bottom,

breath in my neck but we were laying in my dead grandma’s bed,

drinking and drinking, everything blurry and green, and thinking

that it isn’t bad,

being haunted by the task to take care of the kids,

all those kids that i've never had.

the worst day of my life to rehappen~ just a little worse.

being caught under that mosquito net, screaming but no one hearing

it.

i don’t know, maybe it’s not

the typical nightmares,

it's just an exhaustive battle with my head.