Challenge
does this mean it's over
Learning to love when you don’t love yourself
My anxiety texts you at 2am
(and 6am and 8am and 10am and 1pm and 5pm and 9pm and 11pm)
I am waiting for you to tell me that it’s over
I was too much
I was not enough
I spend nights panicking
Writing pages of insecurities
My personality, my sexuality
You are one of the best things that has happened to me
I do not want to be one of the worst things that has happened to you
I vomit my fears on you
I cry in your arms for hours
(you won’t let me run away)
(you won’t let me cry alone)
I am terrified that you will see me the way I see myself.
You meet the fears with kindness and understanding
You don’t mind the stains I’ve left on your shirt
“The way you love me is enough”
“The person I love is the person you are”
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