Don’t need an intervention
Or the good intentions it imbues
Never wanted pity
Least of all yours, for loving you!
I’m a vent without a filter
A flame without spark
My center is left and slightly off kilter
Every pain until you
Was a walk in the park
Should have never opened up this door
I knew what it would do
And as for you and your part,
You should have known it too
I’d like it stricken from the records
And all the documents corrected
That say you ever loved me back
Or worse!
That you felt the same as I,
as I mistakenly suspected
Did I make you believe
In something that’s untrue?
Tell me, just exactly what
I ever asked of you?
Does it piss you off
That you wasted time on me?
How cruel then, to both of us
to not just let me be
All this time
You mistook my need for bravery
And longing for strength
Then took my faith and stretched it
Far beyond its length
I tried to fight it as best I could
Because I truly love you
The way love truly should
I think you thought me fearless
And it gave you courage too
It was desire that was brave,
not me
Don’t you see it came from you
You needed answers, I see that now
But accepted none
Too bothered by the why and how
Whoever said the truth was fun
Take these words for nothing more
Than tiny grains of salt
For I mean no ill intent
Or to place some kind of fault
I just mean to explain
That I wasn’t trying to hurt you
And I know from you the same
So, please just don’t be mad at me
When you’re searching to place blame
Someday I think you’ll see it
That I meant every single word
And when you do, remember
What you felt, not what you thought you knew or heard