There's still days where I hurt just as much as the first

Almost a year later and it remains something I can't get over

I watch your friends share memories and smile, laugh, remember

I guess I'm not yet there

Something was torn from me that day

Something that will never return

A love good and pure

A love I still yearn for

So much care

You were always there

Your name like blades across my skin opening wounds with mitch-match stiches

All the times I've tried to sew them shut, without fail they open up

The love you offered was not something I was ready for

I'm still not, but I'm drowning in regret for not giving it a fair shot

I vowed when you passed that I would never love unless they loved me like you did

Took care of me in all the ways I need to be cared for

Ensuring safety and stability

An equal part of this team

Perhaps to find that again, an ignorant dream

I thought I had

Now I'm not so sure

Though pieces of him are good and true

He'll never be you

No one ever could