Communication - Is it key?
That moment you know what you're about to say is going to make you extremely vulnerable or look like a complete idiot, but then you say it anyways because this little courageous voice says "go for it! What's the worst that could happen?"
So then you do and sure enough, you make a complete fool of yourself. Those irreversible words that will forever haunt you. Here's what I said.
"I might sound like a crazy person, but I like you. And I feel like life could be an exciting adventure if you were in it. You're a little bit of a dick but genuine and actually really kind. Of all the people I've dated lately I enjoy your company the most. By far. Enough that I'd move to Florida for you. I think you're great. So there ya go- heart on my sleeve. Normally wouldn't be quite so honest with someone that I don't know feels the same way but you're leaving so I have nothing to lose."
I had a lot to lose. Including but not limited to; my pride, self respect, dignity, a whole heart etc.
His response: "I think I've been clear how I feel."
And that is all.
So - communication. Is it key? I think I'll hold off on further communication and see how that works out. Maybe there's a chance I can recover at least a shred of my dignity. If you need me, I'll be under that rock over there.