Pain Inside Me

I keep so much pain

inside myself.

I grasp my anger

and loneliness

and hold it

in my chest.

It has changed me

into something

I never meant to be

It has transformed me

into something

I never meant to be.

It has transformed me

into a person

I do not recgonise.

But I don't know how

to let it go.

They say pain ends

but for me, it just numbs.

Only to come back

With a stronger force.

I don't know how much

more I can take.

Suffering, but pretending

that everything's okay.

I have so much to say,

yet I don't know

how to open up

to you

In a way that

doesn't make our

relationship awkward.

Will you accept me

when I reveal myself?

Or will you leave me

just like everyone else?

...Are you the true friend that I have been looking for?