Pinky

My toads are all around me. All over me is amazingness. They love me. I am their friend! They are hopping all around on the dirt part. I am on the cement part in the middle. They make a circle all around me. We are playing. They love to play in the hose with me. It’s my greatest day that they would come. Toads are playing, toads are playing with me! So happy, they want me to keep on going! I also want this. I want it to never end! It could go forever and just be heaven with me and toads and the hose. I make a waterfall for them. Toads are all my friends. I love them all around me. They hop and go hop and hop. They want me more, and they also want water, and they like me, we are friends.

I gave them names from last time. One has pink cheeks, so that’s why he is Pinky. I love him, he’s my friend. The hose goes up, then down like this, then it goes splash on the dirt.

Toads don’t bite, they are our friends. They are not scared. They like us. They like me. Everyone is happy. Everybody's hopping, even me with mud going on my legs, hopping in a circle I am in. The water goes BLAP BLAP BLAP and it’s heaven with all my toads, till I made a mud puddle right there again. BLAP BLAP BLAP, there’s a mud puddle for you guys, BLAP BLAP BLAP, and one for you, and one for you, I keep going and going and going for all my toadfriends that I love.

--Oh, Oh, my foot did not do ground, it just did a soft. It just did squish.

I did it. I did it. I did it! It’s Pinky! Oh, no. Oh, no! His guts are out of him. His tongue is sticking. He’s not doing his tongue back in. Oh no! His eyes mean he is dead! 

Drop the hose and run and run.

Mommy! Mommy! I did something bad! I did a bad thing!

In the house with mud all over. 

Mommy! I did something bad! Mommy!

Mommy says, What happened? and she’s scared.

What happened? Honey, what HAPPENED?!?

I killed Pinky!! I stepped on him! I killed him!! I’m in trouble with God, Mommy!

Mommy gives hugs for I don’t know. I killed my friend, I don’t know why she does it. God made him and I killed him.

Mommy smiles, It’s okay. God knows it was a accident.

Mommy is happy now. Not scared. She tells about toads and God. Toads are good. God loves them. But he loves people even more. God will forgive me. It’s just a toad. They can’t know anything. Not like people.

I didn’t know before about toads how they are different.

Mommy says God’s not mad at me. I’m still good. It was just a accident and a dumb silly toad, that’s all.

I don’t know why it makes me not cry, except for toads are different.

She says, Go out and play some more, but remember, those’re just toads, you silly.

Okay. Okay. I will. Just a couple more cries and it's over. Think I'm okay.

Pinky’s friends are here all over. Mommy’s right. They don’t know. They don’t even know I did this.

Thank you, God. I am sorry. Sorry I killed your Pinky. Your Pinky that you made. Pinky was my friend and I am sad at what I did. But thank you God for making him. Thank you for not hating me, even when Pinky’s guts are out and I did it. Promise I will be more careful. When I walk with all you toads, I promise. I have to go bury Pinky now. I love you. I am sorry that I’m so big.