Love isn’t a word I use lightly. It’s or people who I believe are importaint to me. I love you for who you are as a person and I would gladly love to spend the rest of my life with you, lover or sibling.
When I say I love you, you are no longer a friend to me. You are either now apart of my family in some way or you are the one person I hold close to my heart in a diffrent light.
If I love you in a famial way, then you’ve just fucked yourself over because you are not getting rid of me, no matter how hard you try. Romantically... that’s a very diffrent story.
My point here is that the way I love you will only change with how you do. That being said, you’ve already breached my trust issues barrier and my anxiety too. You’d be someone I actually, really enjoy being around. So, I doubt that my oppinon on you will ever change.
You might think I’ll get mad if you do something I don’t like, or if I found out you were degrading yourself as less importaint but that is far from the case. If anything, I’d be sad. Sad because you think that I’d get so upset over things that I sometimes do myself. I honestly would’ve thought that you thought better of me. But that’s not the case.
But hey, we all have our issues, right? One of of them may be trust, and that’s okay. Or to feel the need to be absolutly perfect for me or someone else, dispite the fact that I want to see you as you and not who you think I want you to be.
And that's okay, I suppose. Just another barrier I get to break.