I felt like a mother
There was a moment where my thoughts went, "I feel like a mother."
And what I meant was, "I feel like an adult."
Because I had never quite felt like one before,
but in that moment,
standing and walking down the grocery store isle,
having had thoughts
hair swinging
noticing the sky through advertisement-plastered windows,
I felt like an adult for the first time
in a way that wasn't just a wish for childhood
And I don't know why, but my mind translated the word
"adult" to "mother"
"I feel like a mother."
And I thought, no silly, I'm not a mother
But I don't know, maybe my mind was right
And maybe that's what being an adult is
I used to have the otherworldly powers of
thinking your commonplace imagination has never been seen before and
((magic and))
seeing the small world for the first time
again and again and then
I was lost for a while in between
And I still am, most of the time
And I thought that was it,
Childhood was over and now all I get is this black-and-white-static limbo
Until I felt like a mother
and learned that being an adult might mean
a new set of powers