Can I do this
No one ever said that moving on would be this hard, but here I am struggling to move on from the feelings that penetrated my heart so deeply. I wish people would have warned me that it wasn't going to be easy to move on. I tried so hard to move on and I am still in love with the first person that had my heart.
Some people can move on so easy and I'm like why can't that be me. I mean I can't even have the person that I want. His parents hate me and so does his sister and I'm pretty sure that if I show up at his house I would be in a grave. They hate me to the point to go through his phone and block me.
Moving on is the hardest thing in the world to do, but maybe one day I will have a chance to move on. If someone is trying to move on helping them because it is not easy. The more and more time I keep talking to him the more I hurt inside. The worst thing about not giving up is that overthinking takes control. I am always ready to stay up all night to think of every possible thing that I could be doing wrong or why I'm not good enough.
Days and Days go by and I'm still stuck in the sticky situation that you call life, but you know we have to keep fighting. I'm done fighting to forget about him, so it's time to embrace that I love him. We are building a bond and he said he still loved me I just hope that he will be able to show me the same love that I show him. Forbidden love is the hardest thing, but it is already the strongest bond that you build. The one person with the stick parents gives up the chance of being in serious trouble to be there for me. If you think that they are the ones they don't give up because they will come back and see what they are missing.