Stuck
Ok i am fine
i do this all the time
dont judge me
cuz you are not me
oh right i'm all alone here
in this black hole of my mind
can't tell if my universe is
expanding
or if all this empty space
is from the holes that form
everytime I try
to say I know best
better than all the rest
And then I laugh
that sad, choked rasp
cuz I know I'm all alone here
in this lonely vastness
of my mind,
spinning madly off its axis
and my wasted words
fall aimlessly
into indifference
cuz there is no one left
to impress
no one who cares enough
to be convinced
Frustration rolling over
into contempt
All these broken instances
that no one can fix
and I will be better
once these words
are shedded
but for now I am all alone
no costumes no coverup
no stage
no spotlights to bask
in the glow of my rage
Can't grasp the why
it's becoming almost
humiliating to try
it does no good for me
to scream to shout to pray to cry
my attempts silly and denied
K now i am over this
self self self
Deep breath and try
you limited human
TRY TRY TRY
thank god I've forgotten
how to cry.
R.