part one <3

i sat at a table in the back of the party, far off from the crowd, but i could tell that those around me still felt my draining presence. a friend would come up and say, "dance with me!" and i would motion them away with a sigh and say, "i have social anxiety."

i preferred being alone at parties. times like that and i wondered why i even went in the first place, then i remember it was for a social media post or just status. everyone went to those parties in highschool, and if you didn't, you were odd.

i was thinking about that when jake approached my table.