WILD WINDS 4: the ribbon
Because wild winds wrote my name
Across the concrete in red letters of blame
Because I AM the reason you came…
I am the reason he hides; the reason they declaim
I have been tinged, I taste banality
Pearlescent teal and flames of carnality
2,000 years this side of night yet somewhere inside, there exists some light
A weightlessness that brings shame to flight and lets me absolve without having to fight
The forces at work well below the detectable tip
The ones that say, "No." and those that command me to rip
My shell from its framework, alabaster and cracked
I was biodegradable once…
I AM SCAR TISSUE AND CHEMICALLY ABSTRACT
Metallic where the unscathed bone cracked
A crater in the arm where the ribbon was packed
And cotton candy can't taste as sweet when, after wild winds, the body meets the street
Plant the truth beneath the wet, black peet and pray that it and ears never haphazardly meet
Never have I ever screamed in defeat-
The secrets I'll hold until Death and I meet
When the demons come, they arrive by the fleet and I find there's no way but to gracefully retreat
Into mySELF, fear-rattled and at a loss
The smallest always looks me in the eye and gives the coin a toss
"Heads, we'll be with you for a day - tails, you're ours foreverrrr…"
They ate my guts so long ago, I have none with which to reply, "Never."
Or even, "Whatever." - I can't feign not caring-
The glowing spots set in their rings are the pieces of my soul they're wearing
Parts of who I am that I didn't anticipate sharing
And there's no one around who's fit for pairing
Love's in the corner sullenly staring and at my own reflection, I'm rufescent and glaring
Howling into sweet, dark nothing, "WHAT HAVE I BECOME?!"
Receiving a wispy, godforsaken reply, "Inhumanly glum…"
I am interwoven with all that is wrong
Gangrene and tetanus-
Lockjaw to prolong-
The horrified expression frozen, mouth utterly agape
Close the verbal floodgates with staples and duct tape
But before you do, shove your hand down my throat
Tear from their God given place my vocal cords as you smote
My bodily vessel, invaded and overridden
By presences and faculties that once were strictly forbidden
Wild winds carried them in and so shall they sweep me under…
And in my mind and in the sky rings the same voluminous thunder