october fifteenth // shame
i.
SNAP snap
s N. a. p!
ii.
head is empty, (dreadful)
eyes are (dreadful)
iii.
HEAVY HEAVY HEAVY
iv.
eight, VIII., E I G H T
eight eight eight
v.
eight heavy days strung round
my neck, choke, suffocate,
S T R A N G L E
me with hope
(i am so sorry)
vi.
WHERE HAVE YOU
G O N E
vii.
(so)
(selfish, huh?)
viii.
ball goes swish,
in time with beat of pulse,
SWISH, BOUNCE, POUND, LIFT,
SWISH, BOUNCE, POUND, LIFT,
SWISH, BOUNCE, POUND, LIFT,
ix.
(i am)
(so wretched, hm?)
x.
WHO
SAYS? WHO
SAYS, WHO
D E C I D E S ?
xi.
(i am sorry) (i do not hate you)
(i am not mad)
(i miss you) (i miss you so much)
(no excuse)
xii.
CRACK OF THUNDER,
of eyelids over eyes—and,
oh,
how
odd
it is,
to
w a t c h
things
on other side !
xiii.
(I MISS YOU?)
xiv.
(hope you)
(cannot)
(hear me)