Tears

Men don’t cry

I don’t cry

Not because I’m a man

Or maybe it is because I’m a man

Crying is a sign of weakness

But weakness is vulnerability

And vulnerability is a decision

A decision I decide not to make

I don’t cry

I can’t cry

I try to cry

I don’t cry

I’m afraid you’ll bring these tears

The rainclouds I’ve been storing for years

Maybe I should be relieved

But as of now I’m filled with fear

Fear of commitment

Of emotional attachment

Of this foreign feeling

Called love

And I’ve been secretly hiding from it

Hiding from my friends, my family, myself

Because love leads to tears

Because love leads to happiness

I don’t cry

But I’d be willing to

If you let me

I want to be happy

I don’t cry

I never have

But I know I will

Because you’re here

Because I’m in lo-

I appreciate you

Wow this one is a mess