Welcome to my reality!
A day in my life will be a boring and dark and sad day.
So, in the morning, I get up, getting ready to go to my practice as a physiotherapist assistant. I always take the bus and once I am in town, I walk till I arrive. Once I'm there, I get ready and prepare the rooms for the patients and I always put a smile so I can look happy and fine! * i like to separate and control my emotions at work and home*.
A beautiful day comes to an end after all those patients and their questions every time about my life, or where I live, or where I studied. But there are some other patients that you get their vibe and you have an actual and nice conversation but hey, I chose this job so weird things or anything will come out from patients.
At night I will talk to friends and my current boyfriend. But on some point I will start to feel empty, like I don't deserve any of this or why am I still breathing! Sad music playing every time while I pretend to be fine and talk to my boyfriend. I am good at hiding my feelings from others because I have learnt to ignore me and try to help those I care about.
Sometimes, I think of hurting me but I never do, like something is stopping or I have second thoughts for what am I about to do. To be honest, I don't want to hurt myself! I am scared to do it. I know I have a purpose to this world! I don't know what it is yet but I know I have something and I am going to find it and make it right!
So this is a day in my "perfect" life!
Welcome and goodbye!