you don’t think?

you don’t think i’ve got enough tribulations?

too much negative energy

hanging onto my skin.

you don’t think i have enough empty,

enough broken (promises)

under my skin?

you don’t think the hurt is deep enough?

thought i needed to try to survive a tidal

wave,

while dodging bullets

and trying to talk to angels

because it’s all i have left.

do you think i have enough lonely?

no?

you’re going to take away you too?

pull yourself through my pores,

until you are standing on your own,

then knock my feet out from under me.

knees buckling and i am too weak

for swimming in these rapids.

i am the only one.

i have no one.

nothing can possibly understand me.

nobody can feel this loneliness.

but i thought you cared enough

to make the ride thru this hell with me.

instead i’m burning in your deception,

i am smoke in mirrors

as your lies try to fold me up

so i won’t see

all the ways you have

moved away from me.

because i don’t have enough,

let’s multiply this pain,

divide the happiness left,

subtract the light

and add more emptiness

to this shell of a girl.

this is how you left me here.

this is how i am.

defeated.

defeated.

but i guess,

if i think about it-

even in the brightest dreams i have

still, we did part.