I cannot

I cannot even begin to tell anyone how many times in the last year that I've asked myself if I was ever going to be okay again - if I was ever going to be "normal", feel "normal." If the heaviness was ever going to lift, because I was too "heavy" for every person I came in contact with. Its exhausting having to verbalize every single need and expectations to someone who doesn't have ears to listen nor eyes to see without casting judgement.

Time does go on and eventually you begin to feel lighter and lighter - I say nothing to you and you hear me. I stand in my shadows and you see me. Giving me everything I've always needed, but never had. I've never met a heart and soul like mine - until you. You are my beginning, my middle and my end. My relentlessness in love is yours for the keeping, we are one day closer to the next, a place I wasn't sure existed after experiencing all of the tragedies my heart has had to love to make sense of how it would all play into my life - now I look forward to interlocking our fingers, lying down with you - sleeping with our dreams in sync.