send me a sign

"Who would have thought" my dad said as his eyes filled with tears and his face glowing with a sparkle of joy, i didn't dare to tell him the truth, i didn't dare to tell it to anyone, that the voices had told me everything, that this life called me out of my comfortable home out into this wicked world, i knew that i would go away one day dad, but i didn't imagine it to be this painful, i was living a quit life when out of nowhere the voices called me out, "are you ready to make your dreams come true" they said with an evil smile, they vanished away, i looked at life and life looked back at me, she didn't say anything, but i felt it puling me there , pulling me in as i had no choice but to follow, when life has been planed all you do is follow, i was terrified that day, i didn't want to go, i was scared of leaving so i asked again, should i go ? are you sure that i should go, and it didn't respond it simply puled me in, and filled my soul with the idea "i must to go" not that "i want to go" or "i should go" but that i must , so i left, but life, now what, ever since i came you disappeared i don't hear the voices anymore, all i see is life from a distance, but life doesn't look back at me, you said you needed me life, you said i had to leave, that i had to get to where i am now, but i don't see how you could ever need me, where are you life, why won't you look at me, what's wrong with me, did you want me to leave so that my family would live better without me, so that i disappear, was it to help the people i meet, was i to do something?? or maybe i did something wrong along the way and no longer worth anything anymore ? Life give me a sign what should i do