Back Around

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I miss my fucking mom like I miss my fucking leg

it got cut off I'm a pirate and I'm walking on a peg

and it's really fucking weird cause we never could get close

my dad took me from

the one I needed most

I have no memories before the age of six

it's funny he always had a camera on me

but there are no pics

of me

or her

maybe just a few

and by "a few" I literally mean one more than two

My dad the one who raised me was really fucking mean

when he married my stepmom they became a team

and they had my sister and I turned really green

I was jealous and angry and I was obscene

trying to get attention any way that I could

and I always was bad cause they never noticed good

they also never noticed when I'd make my wrists bleed

or I'd take a bunch of pills and smoke a lot of weed.

They only really cared when I ever dared to disobey

in any kind of way that would make other people say

anything out of any ordinary way

when I was there I wasn't allowed to play

couldn't ever play couldn't cross the street so

I'd stay in my room and I'd use my feet

to dance in front the mirror til it was time to go to bed

and even though I had nightmares there wasn't any dread

I could sleep and sleep

never counting one sheep

just enjoying my nightmares playing on repeat

anything was better than being in that place

and I HATED THAT HOUSE

and I HATED THAT SPACE

and I HATED MY ROOM

and I HATED MY FACE

and I HATED YOU AND I HATED TIME AND SPACE

GET TOO CLOSE AND YOU'LL GET PUNCHED IN THE FACE

but then I'll show you my panties all covered with lace

I'm using Wayne's beat to write my silly song

and I know I ain't paid so I know that it's wrong

trying to fit in where I suppose I don't belong

but when it blows up

(I'm talking about my song)

getting played all the time

I hope that HE will like my rhyme

and all the baby steps the baby made without a crime

Are there any more babies out there young like me?

Still young and shit with the whole world to see?

I just want em to know they can be what they be

they are beautiful and silly

and some are funny

sad some days you're just really fucking mad

AND YOU KNOW WHAT, GIRL?

THAT DON'T MAKE YOU BAD

nothing makes you bad cause you're really good inside

so don't let the world and it's people make you hide

STAND UP STRAIGHT, CHEST OUT, CHIN UP

and then if they don't like it?

THEN YOU UPPERCUT

FUCK THIS WORLD DON'T LET IT GET YOU DOWN

ACT LIKE AN ASS

BE FORTY AND A CLOWN

cause I swear if you don't

this place'll make you drown

and I swear when you go

you'll go without a sound

Take it from a bitch

who was one to "make a block"

a bitch on her knees

butting heads with a glock

fuck that life

and fuck that strife

that fucking shit make it hard to be a wife

when you've done too much

and you've seen much more

and always are you looking

for the magic door

that'll take you away to your own paradise

I'm still trying to find mine

that would be nice

I hope you find yours

the best way you can

do it better than me and I'll always be your fan

we can choose to love

we don't have to hate

but if hates what you choose then you choose your own fate

I'm past mid-life and this is what I've found

WHAT GOES AROUND REALLY DOES COME BACK AROUND.