Back Around
I miss my fucking mom like I miss my fucking leg
it got cut off I'm a pirate and I'm walking on a peg
and it's really fucking weird cause we never could get close
my dad took me from
the one I needed most
I have no memories before the age of six
it's funny he always had a camera on me
but there are no pics
of me
or her
maybe just a few
and by "a few" I literally mean one more than two
My dad the one who raised me was really fucking mean
when he married my stepmom they became a team
and they had my sister and I turned really green
I was jealous and angry and I was obscene
trying to get attention any way that I could
and I always was bad cause they never noticed good
they also never noticed when I'd make my wrists bleed
or I'd take a bunch of pills and smoke a lot of weed.
They only really cared when I ever dared to disobey
in any kind of way that would make other people say
anything out of any ordinary way
when I was there I wasn't allowed to play
couldn't ever play couldn't cross the street so
I'd stay in my room and I'd use my feet
to dance in front the mirror til it was time to go to bed
and even though I had nightmares there wasn't any dread
I could sleep and sleep
never counting one sheep
just enjoying my nightmares playing on repeat
anything was better than being in that place
and I HATED THAT HOUSE
and I HATED THAT SPACE
and I HATED MY ROOM
and I HATED MY FACE
and I HATED YOU AND I HATED TIME AND SPACE
GET TOO CLOSE AND YOU'LL GET PUNCHED IN THE FACE
but then I'll show you my panties all covered with lace
I'm using Wayne's beat to write my silly song
and I know I ain't paid so I know that it's wrong
trying to fit in where I suppose I don't belong
but when it blows up
(I'm talking about my song)
getting played all the time
I hope that HE will like my rhyme
and all the baby steps the baby made without a crime
Are there any more babies out there young like me?
Still young and shit with the whole world to see?
I just want em to know they can be what they be
they are beautiful and silly
and some are funny
sad some days you're just really fucking mad
AND YOU KNOW WHAT, GIRL?
THAT DON'T MAKE YOU BAD
nothing makes you bad cause you're really good inside
so don't let the world and it's people make you hide
STAND UP STRAIGHT, CHEST OUT, CHIN UP
and then if they don't like it?
THEN YOU UPPERCUT
FUCK THIS WORLD DON'T LET IT GET YOU DOWN
ACT LIKE AN ASS
BE FORTY AND A CLOWN
cause I swear if you don't
this place'll make you drown
and I swear when you go
you'll go without a sound
Take it from a bitch
who was one to "make a block"
a bitch on her knees
butting heads with a glock
fuck that life
and fuck that strife
that fucking shit make it hard to be a wife
when you've done too much
and you've seen much more
and always are you looking
for the magic door
that'll take you away to your own paradise
I'm still trying to find mine
that would be nice
I hope you find yours
the best way you can
do it better than me and I'll always be your fan
we can choose to love
we don't have to hate
but if hates what you choose then you choose your own fate
I'm past mid-life and this is what I've found
WHAT GOES AROUND REALLY DOES COME BACK AROUND.