Clean

Haunted by a shadow from the past

By a love I thought would last

By you, who took all he could need

Wasn’t I too young to be left broken?

My heart was so open

Why’d you let it bleed?

Was I ever enough?

Did I want you too much?

When will this love be done with me?

I’ve taken it all in my stride

Excused the way you stole my pride

I can’t count the times I’ve cried

I’ve got to get

clean

That fix of you runs through my veins

I crave the way you cause me pain

I’m begging for a fall of rain

I’m ready to come clean

Our memories, now painted black

There’s only darkness looking back

But there’s a lighthouse on this map

Up ahead

And maybe if I chase that light

Everything might be alright

There’s only one task left tonight

Leave what’s dead

Was I ever enough?

Did I want you too much?

When will this love be done with me?

I gave you all of my best parts

Paint your black walls red with hearts

In the ruins now the healing starts

I’ve got to get clean

These track marks bruising fragile arms

Reminders of your wicked charms

I will not let you in to harm

I’m ready to get clean

Will you wash away with the water

Or will it all just be another

Scar beneath my skin?

I was never enough

I just need you too much

You told me love

You’re done with me

You took a girl so pure and true

And twisted her to fit with you

Don’t act as if you never knew

Now that I’m here clean

Don’t lure me back with tempting love

As if that’s even what this was

Can’t love a man I couldn’t trust

We’re done. I’m finally clean.