Meditation

It's dawn.

Please leave me alone.

Let me have this moment as the sun rises and a new day greets me. Don't come into my space demanding my attention.

This bench is my haven, before I have to deal with demands. Of school, of my part-time job where my boss thinks of me as cheap full-time help. Of my parents who think I'm a genius who isn't trying. Of my brother who thinks of me as Dad because our real one is usually drunk.

Don't poke me.

Let me gather my strength. My courage. My determination.

Let me calm my thoughts, which scramble through my brain at such speed it takes me long eons to stop them and just be.

Let me be and then, perhaps I can do all my life dictates.

God made me strong. I have to believe.