Where am I?
Have you ever woke up one morning
and just felt like this is not the real life
you were supposed to have?
I mean everything you went through up to this point has been to get other people to where they should be, but your life and your spiritual happiness doesn’t match up.
I have vivid dreams of people and places who, in my dreams I know who they are and what my role in life there is and I feel like have a purpose there.
Then I wake up to this reality.
Here I have no purpose, I have no job, I see no one, I go nowhere, and I contribute nothing. I am useless and I hate it.
When I dream, I am still a mother, still a daughter, a granddaughter. I live in nice houses, money isn’t a problem and
speaking with people is easier.
When I wake up in the mornings, I don’t look forward to the day anymore.
Everyday for me is the same.
(For those reading this who are thinking damn girl! Get a job!) I’m
handicapped, can’t drive, can’t work and my mobility is limited.
This life is so useless to me I am so tired of it, I just dont want to wake up anymore….
Useless..