how you make me feel.

whenever i see you smile, i can feel fuzz sink down into my heart. i feel the same way when i see her smile. i could stare into both of your eyes for as long as i possibly could, but i wouldn't know which to gaze into. i don't know how to choose, but i will have to at some point. i cannot wait any longer for the one i love, but that feels too easy to have someone who wants me. i want to fight for what i want, not for what comes to me. but maybe it should be that easy. could it be? should it be? what do i do, i really do not know. one is too immature while the other is not. the one i love is obsessed with somebody no better than me, when i am right here and he's thousands of miles away. she knows i would be better for her, yet she chooses worse. why is that? is she too comfortable? is she too uncomfortable? i have no clue. i wish i could hold onto that love, but i cannot any longer. i hope one day this will change, and we can be happy. i give up.