Self-Sabotage
Deep inside my twisted mind
Where everything is do or die
I conjured up a fight that I can't win
Painted your skies black with storms
Picked rose petals but left the thorns
Cast you in the role as my villain
It's not fair
I do these things to hurt you
And I know you care
So why do I, oh why do I
Treat you like a mirage
While I self-sabotage
Can't recall what your crime was
But I'll destroy you
Until you hate me
Settle in for the barrage
I love you, I told you that
But I held a knife behind my back
When it ends, cause it always will
I'll go in for the final kill
It's not right
I do this out of habit
Start another fight
And you concede, you concede
But I need to
Treat you like a mirage
While I self-sabotage
Can't recall what your crime was
But I'll destroy you until you hate me
Settle in for the barrage
When the dust settles
Your tested metal
Holds me in its grip
You stuck through it
Stuck through this
And I surrender
White flag
I'll always remember
When you told me that
You love me in all my flaws
Through my self-sabotage
No matter what the problem was
My head on your shoulder
Now its over
We survived the barrage
Of my self-sabotage
And I hope to God
you're not a mirage.