Why Stay
Warm breath of lingering whiskey
Not sure when you swept in.
You woke me up as you fell asleep.
Your midnights are always spent
Somewhere else. With someone else.
You're always ripe with wanting.
Why do you stay?
I've marked the exits
I've made the plan
I've packed the bags, just in case.
I wait.
I'm always in a state of waiting.
Why do I stay?
I hate this. I hate us.
This awful routine we became.
I should want to leave.
But I always remember
That first vibrant summer
Dancing to God Only Knows
I'll always love that version of you
We haven't been that for a while
But I hold on to the hope
That we'll find our way back
That you'll smile
Like I was your world.
In the silence of the twilight
I think of the fight we should have
I think of the words I should say
I carefully arrange sentences.
But I say nothing.
You sleep and say nothing
And we continue as we were.
I don't know why you stay
You'll never say
I don't know why I stay
I'll never say.