i am loved
i have been loved by so many people just because i listen to them
i listen and therefore they love me
they do not truely love me
they do not even know me
they just love to be listened to
i wish they really knew me and loved me
but i suppose if they love me in any way i should be grateful
but it just makes me wonder if they would still love me if they knew me for who i am
and not just as an echo chamber or a hype women or someone who can react to their stories
maybe they would love me if they knew me
maybe they wouldn’t
i kinda wish i didn’t listen so much
so i would know
if they would love me for things about myself and who i am rather than what i can do for them
but there’s a relief in being loved, valued, useful and serving, even if they don’t know you
and i do believe everyone should be listened to
and maybe then i shouldn’t resign myself to the fate of being the listener
because i am so loved
but not because i am me, but because of what i can do for you