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sixteenth
january
twenty
seventeen
envelope
(misanthrope)
redundancy
“rewind that…”
late
september
twenty
eleven
nostalgia ultra
sony mp3
cracked screen
cross-country
every little thing
on the back seat
crockery
stereo
two pairs of jeans
old nike sbs on my feet
(with the bubble heel)
overdrawn
oldest kid
on the graduate scheme
five point five
went by
time to leave
“good luck”
“don’t need luck”
nice exit speech, chief
forget it
dead it
roll credits
new frank era
obsessed with futura free
kept playing it on repeat
couldn’t see
honey for bees
just writhing colonies
truthfully
colleagueZ iZ alwayZ fleaZ
spines of others
as seats
feed n’ breed
micro-dynasties
thirty, in a dirty house share
primark sheets
a fan/no fans
white noise for road noise
chilled breeze
exposed
comatose
hunched close
to a twenty-one inch tv
writing
rewriting
and rewriting my cv
rejected
dejected
screened
few calls with recruiters
lying ’bout experience
lying ’bout dreams
compass of necessity
what initially
felt like fair *bye-bye* money
burning down to zero
as opportunities
drifted further from reach
cancelled spotify plan
adverts in streams
aural insult to injury
gym days
half-hearted reps
no gains
wasting time
on the smith machine
(like a goofy newbie)
flows
prose
poetry
let some loose
into the wild
on most
hit delete
“might run away”
burn some weeks
on a beach
hide from reality
(just like it’s always been)
“sheesh”
months went by
like moths
new soundtrack: rain in england
lil b
…
end of a rainbow
fast forward six
comedown chorus
split seams
no i in team
can’t listen to joji
glimpse of us
makes my heart feel
like cartwheels
through japanese screens
…
memories
an old school scene
before pedestrianised streets
ifrit emits
a warrior scream
despite the scars
come so, so far
now yesterdays fee
ain’t todays fee
(you can’t afford me).