The day I was left behind

I used to proudly think myself strong

That no matter how tough life can get, I will always know where I belong

I used to think of my feet as roots ,far beneath the earth binding me to my truth

Strong and wild stretching all across the land, a testament to my everlasting youth

I’ve lived in dreamland quite often throughout the years

Fought demons and dragons and mourned my loved ones with bloody tears

I thought I would be ready for anything, that I could take on the world

That my heart was strong and my mind will never be stirred

Thinking back on it now, how foolish I have been

No matter how old they get, you can never, a child from their parents Wean

It has been 2,028 days since tragedy struck my soul

My time froze on that day, and I have been constantly losing control

I tend to block the memories to be honest with you

I’m yet to fully reconcile that there was nothing else that I could do

But every time I think I found some peace of mind

I’m haunted by the ghosts of my past, forever confined

I remember that day as if time has never passed

How could it, when I have been trapped all along, aghast

He came back home like always, and I opened the door

As if With my hands I blew the horns of my eternal war

For the first time I didn’t look him in the eyes

Taking for granted the times we shared, not ready for the upcoming surprise

Suddenly I heard the call,

The sounds he used to make whenever the episodes, him befall

However this time the silence was long and deafening

Unable to fathom the loud truth , the air unsettling

And I ran!

Like a madman escaping the prison of solitude, I ran

Barefoot, cold, fuming with freezing heat my strife just began

I never knew fear like the terror that flowed in my blood on that freezing night

As if on overdrive every organ underneath my skin and bones was ready to fight

Knocking on doors I never seen the like of before

Desperate for anything that could pick me up from the sinking floor

But you see, when our eyes turn blind and our voices turn silent

Deep within our genes the truth screams to come to the surface unbent

I started to hate things I used to love so badly before

Car rides in the dark when the deafening silence my heart tore

I prayed that night like a devout saint my heart was stripped naked and bleeding

To not take him away, for this to be a nightmare , in vain pleading

But fate had a plan for him without me in his life

It seemed like the game was over and the player did not survive

They say that fear like a plague invaded the heart and the mind

Once it takes over, the old you will forever, in the past, be left behind