I grieve who you would have been
I grieve who I would have been with you by my side
I grieve the things that could never have been
and I grieve all the things that could have if you were here with me now.
I grieve the memories that faded into the background
I grieve the future…. the car rides, random trips. Moments of having you around that seem more significant
I grieve the conversations we would have now that I’m older
I grieve all the things my 23 year old self never did back then.
Im grieving for lost time that will never be repaired.
Im grieving for the lost future that will never be there
I’m grieving for the daydream scenarios of what life will be like now
and I’m grieving of letting go of what will never be.
To grow older
and the memories will grow less with you gone.